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Today we had our first appointment with the midwives. They're so welcoming and I just feel so comforted with them, I'm really glad to have chosen them for my pregnancy and birth.

Honestly, all day yesterday and all day today I've been having horrible anxiety about missed miscarriages and have been wondering if you're even still in there. So, today when we went to our appointment I was so nervous that we wouldn't be able to hear you. As they put the doppler on my tummy to listen, we heard a few kicks but couldn't quite find a heart beat, but then a few minutes into it we found it! Daddy and I both let out breaths we didn't realize we'd been holding. That tiny little heart beat has made me 100 times more excited now that it seems so much more real. You're in there. I heard you. :)

I also had to get blood drawn again, which if any of you know me at all, you know that I have horrible anxiety about needles. Well, this time it wasn't so bad since I just had it done so recently and I feel like a four year old because I'm so proud of myself!


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